Saturday, July 21, 2012

will it last?

DH is eating pretty healthy and he has started walking in the evenings. :-D  I really hope this lasts!  It hasn't in the past, but maybe this time it will?  Guess we'll see! I'm excited for this recent change. Maybe if he's actively doing something, he wont be so unhappy? I'm thinking that he will feel better about himself, which in turn will just put him in a better mood all together. Fingers crossed and lots of prayers!!!!

Anyways, I do have a personal question for some of you wives, but I'm not sure I want to put it on my blog.  I'll make an attempt, without going into detail.  Our romance has slowly been dwindling, and I know that this is in direct relation to his health. It's frustrating for both of us, for obvious reasons.  He's 29, diagnosed 7 years ago and has never really taken care of himself for any length of  time.  If he gets on the ball with his health and actually does what he needs to do, what are the chances this will improve?

Well, guess I gotta get off of here now! :)  He wants to know who I'm chatting with! lol

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Dinner and Migraines

Tonight's dinner:meatball subs.  Well, for me.  For DH, he will have meatballs without a sub roll.  Along with a salad and cottage cheese.  Maybe some fruit?  Where does this meal fall on the scale of diabetes friendly?  I'm not sure any more.  The more I research the less I know. lol But it's low carb and not sugar filled so we should be good! :)  As long as DH doesn't decide he has the munchies while I'm off at church with the kids, that is. 

Hubby came home from work yesterday vomiting.  This is always scary for me (as well as the children) because this seems to be one of his major symptoms for ketoacidosis.  He told me it was migraine related, so I just kept a watch on him.  What else can I do?  He wasn't vomiting blood, so no ER trip for us.  Instead he just slept until 9:30 in the evening, woke up and took his meds, ate a little and showered and stayed up talking with me.  No more vomiting...yay! By this morning he was his normal self.  I get migraines and know how big of a painful they are, but I'm just so happy he had a migraine! I suppose most people would think of me as heartless for being so happy that he had a migraine yesterday, but it sure beats the alternative!!

Monday, July 16, 2012

It's been a while

So, it's been a while since I've been on here.  I guess about a year!  Update on life: Hubby now has a full time job managing a radio station.  I worked 2 part time jobs for about 6 months while he was unemployed, but am staying home with the kids again.  He hates his job, although he's making almost as much here as he was at his last job, with the potential to make much more.  And he's not happy.  Umm...okay.  I can have a great day, but as soon as he walks in the door my mood changes.  Why? Because his attitude is terrible.  He was happy being unemployed, staying home, playing PS3 and NOT cleaning the house.  He was content.  But I wasn't making enough money for us to live on with my 2 part time jobs. Yeah, during the holidays I was pushing 55 hours or more a week between the 2 jobs.  But before and after, I was lucky to get 10 hours a week between both places.  This job opportunity landed in his lap and it would have been foolish to let it slip away because it's not his 'ideal' job.  And I can't make him happy.  I'm not happy.  I haven't been for a while.  I've actually started talking to somebody on a weekly basis.  It's only been a few weeks, but already I feel better.  I think I've just lost myself, so I'll work on finding me again.  And maybe when I'm happy things will be better for him.  I will admit, my attitude does change as soon as he walks in the door.  But it's because of having to deal with his poor attitude for so long.  Oh well, we will see where life continues to take us! :)